You're describing psychotic, I was with an individual that would scream and raise hell, punch and scratch themselves before they would throw themselves down a flight a of stairs only to get up and calmly call the police to tell them I left all the black and blue marks. Police would get there, and the police would tell me point blank "you need to get the f out of this. How? I would ask. If I leave with you she's pressing charges and I'm the one going to jail. It wasn't until she got in a lnock down, drag out, hair pulling, fist fight with her son until I got a clean exit without myself involved in the issue.
Yep. I dont remember if Ive told this before.When my ex wifes grandmother died , I was way ******* deep into being a big project manager.
I passed all of it off to some really cool people.
I was heartbroken for my wife.
I had just lost my grandmother and I thought I understood what grief looked like.
I came home earlier than I had said it would take me and she was in front of the mirror brutally punching herself in the face.
She was trying to teach herself how to cry so she didnt look heartless at the funeral.
The part that some of us dont understand is that thier are people who really deeply want to be loved by someone but they are so deep and buried in their truama that they hate you for trying.
People like that wear thier self hatred like a cozy little blanket.
Any time things are going right, There must be a catch. It must be some type of a scam.
Nobody could ever possibly give a **** about them because nobody gave a **** when they were kids.
Thats why they sabotage relationships.
Insecurity and fear.
They cant let go of that little kid hatred security blanket no matter what you try.
And trying to get through that creates a whole lot of fear and makes you a threat.
We get picked from the crowd folks.
We dont end up in these situations randomly.
They find us.
We are often times big confident fish, yet to cocky to pass on that flashy lure.
These relationships and your thoughts change over the years.
She lied to me and stole an entire house two cars a boat and a bit over 250,000 dollars from me. and ****** the apprentice electrician I hired to wire my house while I was working like a dog to pay for her pricess palce.
I left the state for both of our safety.
She got breast cancer and had a double mastectomy and lost her hair is just so all alone and lost and by herself with nobody.
When I was younger I wasted a few years being all pissed off over the money.
We spent three years in court and I spent over 80 grand in legal fees.
And now all of the sudden Im getting old.
And none of that matters.
Turns out you cant take it with you.
Crazy can be kinda fun when you are young.
Right up untill it isnt. Then it becomes psychopathy.
You are not in any way qualified to deal with that.
Find someone who doesnt think that they are perfect and who understands that you are not perfect either.
Find a girl who is okay with farting when she needs to.
Find a girl who is worried about your health and nags your stubborn old ass to go see the doctor.
A woman who thinks I just went to Home Depot when what i really did was go to the gluten free store and bought all of the stuff to make lasagna.
Which is very friggen stressful to me.
This is not not anything I know how to do and cooking stresses me out more than anything.
And here I am. Andrea is asleep becuase she blew up her back overworking in the garden today and I have big grand plans about making her a fantastic meal tommorrow and I should be inside prepping it all but instead Im out here posting on a truck forumn because Im scarred as hell Ill get it all wrong and disappoint my wife.
This is a really big deal recipe for me.
I dont think I can get away with scrambled eggs and popcorn this time